Whatever I Think Of To Write

I keep thinking that I "should" be posting entries in this more often. Fact is, I keep thinking that I "should" be doing them daily, even tho I don't know why that matters, especially if I can't really think of anything to write about.

Then again, I've already had at least one entry turn out considerably different than I thought it would or intended it to when I started, so who knows how important it is to have something in mind to say when you start since that's not always how what results ends up? Does that make any sense?

I still haven't tried everything I want to try on, or learned everything I want to learn about, this site. I want to put links down the side of my blog, both to friends' blogs and to cool sites I know about online. I want to fiddle around with other stuff too.

I haven't been feeling well for about a week now. I've got(at least) a cold, plus I think I'm allergic to some stuff that grows up by my parents' house. The combination of the cold and the allergies really had me out of it this past Tuesday, but at least I wasn't out of it on Monday, when we all went to the Fair.

When I'm sick I feel weak and I feel "like a kid" a lot, which is probably common to many folks. But I also seem to get even more introspective when I'm not feeling well than I usually am(which is a lot to begin with), and this sometimes intensifies or magnifies my depression. Either that's what's been going on the past few days, or my anti-depressant drug isn't working like it should. Then again, I didn't take it some days last weekend, since I was running short of it and didn't want to pay for a refill just yet, so I'm sure that didn't help either.

I've been bored a lot lately. Sometimes I think my life's just filler between watching baseball games. I realize that sounds like a very depressing statement, but it's something I've been feeling or thinking about("Is my life really like this?") some lately.

I've been having a lot more desire to pray and/or read the Bible lately. Which I know is a good thing and prolly the result of and answer to prayers by various folks. The problem is that the increased desire to do these things hasn't resulted in my DOING them any yet.

When I think about how simple prayer/praying can be, it sounds really silly to say that you've had more of a desire to do it(more often), but you haven't yet gone ahead and DONE it. I mean, praying is often as simple or easy as thinking. You don't need to have anything with you, you don't need to be any particular place, etc. It's even simpler than Bible reading, cuz you need to have a Bible(or portion thereof) with you to do that.

I wonder why I feel more of a "compulsion" to do a blog entry each day or so than I do to pray or read the Bible as often? I mean, I might not always be able to think about things to blog about, but I _can_ always think of things to pray about. Maybe I should "force" myself to pray and/or read some before my next entry here, just to "make sure" it/they happen? I don't know, but it's something I thought of, so I put it here.

Things are improving marriagewise. Slowly, but surely, and also encouragingly.

Things are also improving churchwise. I'm not sure, but I don't think we'll be going elsewhere. I'm not even sure if we'll be visiting other churches at this time, tho we haven't really talked about any of this stuff for almost 2 weeks.

As for whether we'll put joining our current church "on hold" or not, I don't know that either. I can see where we might not, which I couldn't before, but I still don't know if we will or not. Mostly cuz we haven't talked about any of this recently.

We signed up with one of those debt management companies about 6 weeks ago and I'm really glad we did. Katrina's glad and relieved about it as well. I think we both wish we'd done this sooner, but at least we DID it!

I keep thinking of stuff to write, then thinking "Who'd want to read(about) that?". I wonder if other bloggers have thoughts like that? Is there such a thing as "Bloggers Block"? ;)

I have a friend who's a missionary in India. If you're reading this and you want to or feel lead to, please pray for him, his family, and his ministry. And, while you're at it, please pray for another friend of mine, here in the States, who's pregnant and it's been a very difficult/risky pregnancy so far. And you can also pray for my dad and my relationship with him. We're on good terms and I've no reason to expect that'll change anytime soon, but things are a bit strained at times.